What Happens in this House, Stays in this House

The blinds always closed,
up there, in my mind
Curtains always drawn
You can knock,
You wont get in
You can peer into the window
 and only see
Your own reflection.
If you slip in with the wind,
It will be stifling
The heat so heavy
The sound so dense.

Once your in
you become part of it.
The door locks from the outside.
The unknown key, in your pocket.

A Walk in the Park

I spent some time

In my brain, yesterday

As I strolled,

music played.

I heard the rain falling.

The wind swirled,

as small leaves

hit the wet ground.

As I sloshed, 

the rain became mud,

The leaves clung

to my bare feet.

The mud grew thicker.

My hear raced.

As usual, my anxiety took its comfortable place.

Now hindered;

Unable to move,

I laid down, there,

 in the mud.

Waiting for the rain to stop,

For the sun to dry its nature.

I sank into the quicksand,

letting it blanket me.

My eyes closed for comfort

My mouth clamped, avoiding earth

that would surely slip in.

I had a dream,

as i slept, there,

 in the mud.

A dream, staring myself.

I sat in a tall tree

looking down on the path

 in my mind.

I watched myself drown in the gunk.

After every part

Of my buried bodied was covered,

The wind shifted.

Pushing the clouds away.

A bright sun sent heat to My Path.

In my dream, I jumped from the tree,

landed on my feet

on to solid ground.

The mud had dried.

I walked to the place, 

on My path

that i was now and forever,

concreted.

Purposely,

I slipped back to reality.

I put on my boots,

grabbed my umbrella,

prepared for my next trip.

Determined

to never get stuck in my head,

again.

You Take My Breath Away

[Exhale] I see the dead in your eyes.
[Inhale] I avert my own.
[Exhale] Bile from my throat rises.
[Inhale] Staggered, you walk into the room.
[Exhale] Out of the corner of my eye, I watch
[Inhale] the light under the door.
[Exhale] off; It's over for the night
[Inhale] on; my chest will stay clenched in fear
[Exhale] It clicks off.
[Inhale] Staggered, like your walk, my breath draws in,
[Exhale] Warm air swirls in front of  me.
[Inhale] My eyes close.
[Exhale] I force my pain out.
[Inhale] Pain that you cause
[Exhale] By drowning your own.

Bewixt

Through a telescope.
I am magnified
From a Distance.
I am small
Behind eyes.
I am measurable
Viewed from Heaven.
I am transparent
Under water.
I am blurred
In truth.
I am lost
On stage.
I am happy
Among others.
I am forgotten
Because of God.
I am blessed
In a storm.
I am concrete.
Outside the glass.
I am looking in
With your love
I, simply, Am.


For my soul-friend Madison, this is the only expression i can release that produces even the smallest fraction of my unmeasurable, pure, love for you. 143, 43